I feel like something is wrong.
I may be getting sick or SALLY is brewing up a nasty storm.
Baby Bro left on Friday for his 3 week SE Asia trip (yay!) and for the last few weeks I’ve been feeling less than stellar. To be honest, I would say “well and truly awful” would be a good descriptor of my current state.
I am hoping and praying that nothing is really happening and it’s just my body dealing with the radical weather fluctuations we’re getting in Calgary this winter/spring. I’ve been taking way more pain medication than usual (read: three+ times a week) and something feels off totally off.
The Reynaud’s has been occurring on a more frequent basis, my joints hurt a ~lot~ and the pain is creeping into my rare nappings so that I can’t get any respite during those precious few minutes..
The reason why I mention all the above seemingly random and unrelated information together is that in the past, whenever someone goes away or it’s somewhere between Thanksgiving & New Year’s, SALLY gets ugly. I am absolutely, positively, terrified that something is going to go horribly wrong before I take off for Las Bacon to see The Boys.
[insert llama here]
I don’t think I’ve ever mentioned it, but sometimes I want to take a really, really big ugly knife (think double-edged, serrated combat knife) and stab the parts of my body that hurt because I think it would be far less painful than what’s going on. The good thing is that I don’t think I could do it. But there are nights where that’s the only thing my brain wants to think about when I’m trying to think of other things to distract myself from the pain.
Truth be told: I want to be hooked up to an IV so badly so I can be rendered unconscious to take away pain it’s not even funny. That, I know I could do.
I am so hoping my body behaves itself.
And as much as I hate saying this: I hope The Healer Dude(tm) better freakin’ do his thing and keep me healthy at least until after I get back from Las Bacon if Mom insists on paying him again to do whatever it is he’s doing when Baby Bro makes his annual “pilgramage” to Japan in two weeks time.